i left graduation right away. and then my sisters and friends went to the beach for the afternoon. i studied at home. then they all came over to our house. and i sat upstairs studying. it was hard. really hard. i only cried once, but wished i was downstairs hundreds of times.
i missed reaghan's pool party sunday afternoon. couldn't hang out on the nights jake was over. and i think worst of all of these was missing garrett's soccer games. everyone went to the beach pretty much all day both saturday and sunday. thankfully, i was able to go to 2 games, but felt the weight of school the whole time i was there. and then it was hard leaving while everyone else was there. i cried again sunday when everyone else left to watch the championship game.
studying has been hard. my mind wants to be a million other places. my creativity goes wild when i need to be doing intense studying instead. even harder than the actual studying was just trying to focus on what i was "learning."
needless to say these past few days have been tiring. feeling sad and at times discouraged. yet, in God's kindness i was often reminded to pray and read God's Word.
last night, i decided to just be done studying at 9. at 9 i'd close the books, put everything away, and do something enjoyable. so i did. i brainstormed fun stuff and watched the basketball game. and today, i went and took 2 of my tests. and i felt like i did well.
well, this afternoon i found out how i did on my lecture part 1 test. i got a 102. i was overjoyed and grateful beyond belief to see the grade. God was indeed helping me to study hard and say no to temptation. he was with me with each and every question. i'm so glad 2/3 are behind me. i'm hoping tomorrow's goes as well, but i'm not quite as sure about what to expect. whatever, the outcome i know God is with me.
61. getting a 102 on the first anatomy test!
62. gorgeous summer nights
63. lovely flowers on the dining room table from our yard
64. the games i did get to see
65. access. such a great message. provoking and encouraging. perfect combo.
again, so much to be grateful for!
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