Heavenly Father
You always amaze me
Let your kingdom come
In my world and in my life
You give me the food I need
To live through the day
And forgive me as I forgive
The people that wronged me
Lead me far from temptation
Deliver me from the evil one

I look out the window
The birds are composing
Not a note is out of tune
Or out of place
I look at the meadow
And stare at the flowers
Better dressed than any girl
On her wedding day

So why do I worry?
Why do I freak out?
God knows what I need
You know what I need

Your love is
Your love is
Your love is strong

The kingdom of the heavens
Is now advancing
Invade my heart
Invade this broken town
The kingdom of the heavens
Is buried treasure
Will you sell yourself
To buy the one you've found?

Two things you told me
That you are strong
And you love me
Yes, you love me


Our God in heaven
Hallowed be
Thy name above all names
Your kingdom come
Your will be done
On earth as it is in heaven
Give us today our daily bread
Forgive us wicked sinners
Lead us far away from our vices
And deliver us from these prisons

Your Love Is Strong by Jon Foreman

I desire that my love for other people would grow to be more like the love God has for me. Unselfish, pure, and deep.

little things...

lately i've been loving the little things in life. so grateful for many wonerful things, and grateful God's helping me enjoy them
-running up to regent with my mom to take pics (40 mins)
-gorgeous trees, i don't remember seeing before in front of that house
-deep pink roses in a cute little vase on our clean kitchen table
-the anticipation of NEXT
-new nail polish
-running Mom a drink at school
-getting to hold little Brookie a few minutes while J'Nelle worked out
-time to sit in the sun and read Hood, a book Eric gave me
-sun tans : )
-water that tastes good
-honey mustard pretzels
-shopping at tj maxx with mom, no place to have to be
-gold diamond earrings
-having nowhere to go and no plans for the night

these are just a few of the little things I've been enjoying these past few days

tues term

due to having absolutely no desire to go hunt down a dictionary right now, I decided to google SAT words and post one of those. So here's my word


blithe: joyous (adj)

4 boys

about to head out the door to hang with 4 of the cutest/sweetest boys in the world. Ran, Trev, Anderson, and Cai, I love spending time with you all! And can't wait to catch up and enjoy dinner with Amanda and Kris too!

Prayers

"Love Lustres At Calvary"


My Father, enlarge my heart, warm
my affections, open my lips, supply
words that proclaim 'Love lustres at
Calvary.' There grace removes my
burden and heaps them on thy Son,
made a transgressor, a curse, and sin
for me; There the sword of thy justice
smote the man, thy fellow; There Thy
infinite attributes were magnified, and
infinite atonement was made;There infinite
punishment was due, and infinite
punishment was endured. Christ was all
anguish that I might be all joy, cast
off that I might be brought in, trodden
down as an enemy that I might be
welcomed as a friend, surrendered to Hell's
worst that I might have Heaven's best,
stripped that I might be clothed,
wounded that I might be healed, athirst
that I might drink, tormented that I
might be comforted, made a shame that I
might inherit glory. Entered darkness that
I might have eternal light, My Savior wept
that all tears might be wiped from my
eyes, groaned that I might have endless song,
endured all pain that I might have
unfading health, bore a thorned crown
that I might have a glory diadem, bowed
His head that I might uplift mine,
experienced reproach that I might receive
welcome, closed His eyes in death that
I might gaze on unclouded brightness, expired
that I might forever live. O Father, who
spared not Thine only Son that thou
mightest spare me, All this transfer thy love
designed and accomplished; Help me adore thee
by lips and life. O that my every breath
might be ecstatic praise, my every step
buoyant with delight, as I see my enemies
crushed, Satan baffled, defeated, destroyed
sin buried in the ocean of reconciling blood,
Hell's gates closed, Heaven's portal open.
Go forth, O conquering God,and show me the
cross, mighty to subdue, comfort, and save.

Valley of Vision pp 42-43

learning...

I've always loved learning. History books, random facts, math formulas, new vocab, it all intrigues me. My goal is to learn something new everyday. In an effort to help that goal, and to satisfy my desire for a larger volume of knowledge, I'm going to start learning a new word every week. And I'm going to post this new word on here. It has to be a word I do not already know. Other than that I'm just flipping open the dictionary, closing my eyes, and directing my finger towards the page. Once it's landed there I open my eyes and there will be my new word! Here it goes...


1. Gaunt: so thin that the bones show; worn and lean especially from hunger or illness. looking gloomy and deserted. (adj)

-taken from-The Basic Dictionary of the American People

this word makes me think of pictures of children I've seen in other countries, starving and lonely. Reminds me to pray for the suffering in our world

loving...

this : )

Happy Momma's Day!

---The phrase "working mother" is redundant. ~Jane Sellman

---The sweetest sounds to mortals given
Are heard in Mother, Home, and Heaven.
~William Goldsmith Brown

---A mother is the truest friend we have, when trials heavy and sudden, fall upon us; when adversity takes the place of prosperity; when friends who rejoice with us in our sunshine desert us; when trouble thickens around us, still will she cling to us, and endeavor by her kind precepts and counsels to dissipate the clouds of darkness, and cause peace to return to our hearts. ~Washington Irving

---A man's work is from sun to sun, but a mother's work is never done. ~Author Unknown

So thankful for my sweet mother on this Mother's Day. She gives and gives and gives and never expects anything in return. She is a true servant. Always willing to give what she wanted. Always willing to sacrifice what she needed. Always willing to run late so we can come too. Always willing to let us use the last little bit or perfume or lip gloss. Always eager to hear about our day. Always happy to run us somewhere instead of taking a nap. My Mother is a truly gifted servant. Her heart for us, her children, is deep and wide. She amazes me with her patience, generosity, and willingness to die to self. Her love for me gives me a glimpse at God's love for me, and her example of wisdom a glimpse at God's character. Apart from the Cross, she is the greatest blessing I've ever received. Mom, I love you.

pink&blue

loving light pink flowers and turquoise/blue mason jars

i had a dream...

Dreams are such strange things, yet I find them so intriguing. I dream a lot. I take a nap for 15 minutes, I dream. I've been asleep 5 minutes, wake up and already have dreamed something. And then I can sleep 9 hours, and again I dream. Some dreams are blurry and ambiguous, others as clear as a glass of water. Some seem meaningless and common, while some leave a deep impression, and I try to figure out the meaning. I remember a dream I had as a kid about Barney the dino- it scared me so badly at the time and now it seems absurd. I remember many dreams driving down country roads but everything outside was just a green haze. There are dreams I will most likely never ever forget simply because of how hard I've tried to forget them. Typically those are sad or very sick. I've had totally random dreams that ended up coming completely true. Prophetic? Maybe. One of my favorite dreams was about me when I was engaged, I wonder if it will happen the way I dreamed it. Probably not even close, though I hope so. Recently, I had another dream. I think it was Sunday or Monday night. I want to share it here.
Let me set the stage by saying that I am going to be pursuing nursing in the fall at ODU. I want to be a pediatric nurse for sure. As of the past few weeks though the idea of being a doctor has often come to mind. At first I put it out of my mind because I'm a girl and hope to one day have a family. But my Mom encouraged me not to do that. She wasn't trying to persuade me to be a doc but just saying God could have that for me, and me being a girl shouldn't make a big difference. I listened and contemplated the idea. Nothing really happened, except I gradually softened to it and began thinking it might actually be a future reality. Then my dream. The most vivid dream I think I've ever had, or tied with my fav dream.


I was a doctor at CHKD, a children's hospital close by. As I walked down the hall, a nurse approached me and said we had a situation. A girl, about 10 years old, was occupying a room due to pneumonia. She had always been a healthy little thing, complete with chocolate curls and deep blue eyes, almost indigo. Freckles scattered her nose and cheeks. Her lips were full, lush even, and resembled the color of raspberries, deep pinkish red. She really had no medical records but her Mom filled out all the info she had. The mom's features greatly mirrored the girls'. However, the nurse came to tell me it appeared the girl was having an allergic reaction to the antibiotics. After her mom saw a rash, she almost instantly began vomiting. The mom quickly called a nurse in, who in turn found me. As I entered the room, the vomiting had stopped. I realized there was nothing we could do for the girl. The news had to be broken to the mom, by me. Struggling inside, I debated back and forth whether or not I should try to share the Gospel with this little family. It was technically against the rules but I felt God urging me to say something. Amazingly, I don't remember being scared. After sharing news with the mom, I assured her I could wait with her until the time came. I also offered to pray for her. She eagerly said yes to both as we sat down at the girl's side. She instantly looked up at me and asked " Am I going to die?" How could she know? I had to tell her the truth. " Yes, very soon. But I will be with you and it won't hurt much." I responded- not very comforting I imagine. She then proceeded to ask, "Have you ever heard of Heaven?" What a doorway for conversation! I quickly tried to figure out what I should tell her, knowing I didn't have long. "Yes I have" "A boy in my class tried to tell me about it once, but the teacher made him stop. What do you know about it? and will you tell me?" I replied, "Well, I know that it is a real place where Christians will go after they die. I know that I am going there. God is there. And there is no pain or suffering there." Without hesitating she inquired," How can I get there?" I briefly shared with her about God (I don't remember my exact words) and offered to pray with her. After I prayed, she began "Lord, I haven't known you for long, but I'm sorry for everything bad I've done. I hope you will forgive me. Thank you for Jesus and the cross. I love you and want to see you soon." And that was it. She was gone.




I don't know what the dream means or if it means anything. I'd like to think so. I've been praying about it these past few days, but wanted to write it down so I wouldn't forget. It amazes me how clear the details were. I would love the chance to impact peoples' lives and make a big difference. Anyways, i had a dream and now you know it.

memorization

love is patient and kind, love does not envy or boast. it is not arrogant or rude. it does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful. it does not rejoice at wrong doing, but rejoices with the truth. love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. love never ends. -I cor. 13:4-8

currently storing this up in my heart

Why a blog?

Well, I decided to create this blog because I love journaling. I like to journal as I read my Bible, I like to journal when I want to remember things, and I like journaling when I just want to get my thoughts out. Yet, I wanted to be bale to include pictures and other sorts of things that are much easier on a blog. So for the sake of memory and fun, I guess, here's to my blog.